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September 9th, 2010

09:05 pm
Hi LJ friends

It's me. I've been quietish. I use facebook much more than LJ these days.

I've been so busy at school ( 12 hours a day sometimes, not counting grading and planning, so that takes up most of my time. I still work at ART. I am taking a Harvard class on metaphysical poetry and will be 60% finished with Masters #2. Relationship stuff has been in constant flux or change. I'm pretty depressed as I see all my friends get married and have babies and get to the next step in their lives. I feel pretty lonely, ashamed, and unwanted and this sends me into a hate spiral either a) toward my body or b) toward my personality. I don't know what is wrong with me.A friend who is getting married this summer reminded me that I put in most effort of my life toward career and self-betterment, while she felt she has focused mainly on relationships. Her point was basically that, even though she is getting married before me, she still doesn't have a career path or the level of satisfaction that I have attained with intellectual-development, which makes *her* unhappy. I guess the moral is that no one is perfectly happy or satisfied all the time.

That's all for now.

Bye, LJ

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October 13th, 2008

07:16 pm - Facebook
Since this seems to be a hot topic:

Tagging me on facebook is okay. I don't use my real name, so any search for Amanda Hughes would yield nothing. I might create a separate Kitty Fox profile and transfer all Kitty and Can Can pictures over there, but since I wear a wig while performing, I'm pretty secure in my anonymity.

However, please don't tag me in videos or use the name Mandy Bon Vivant in conjunction with a video of me. It's okay to tag it with the un-hyperlinked "Kitty Fox" though! Thanks!


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October 10th, 2008

08:52 pm - Sorry to be Debbie Downer
I didn't mean my last post to be so doom and gloom. I'm just scared about trying to find a new job, but I know I can't put teaching off, or I will not be able to keep my scholarship.

In exciting news, I am appearing in the colossal 10th anniversary-edition of the IIDA fashion show on October 30th...as a MODEL. Words you'd never thought you'd hear me say, eh?

Anyway, the theme Bergmeyer chose is "Sin" and I am portraying (what else) but LUST as a naughty combo of a Rococo painting and 19th-century music hall girl, complete with ostrich plumes and not much else. Did I mention I am also the designer and secondary draper of this garment ( made from mosaic tile and couch upholstery)? Ahhh! Stressed!

And there is a special guest judge from "a well-known reality show about fashion and garment construction" who is giving out a special award.

If this is Tim Gunn....sweet jeebus. Die. I. Will. Die.

And finally, CCR will be marching in the Honk parade on Sunday from 12- 5ish. We are in front of ENSMB. Hope to see you there!

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08:43 pm - Financial Crisis hits home
The financial crisis hit home today. I checked my 401(K)...a stupid move.

I have lost 50% of my retirement savings.

Don't tell me "it's just a paper loss" or "you'll earn it back" because this is very real to me.

I don't know if I can even go through with grad school now. How will I ever find a teaching job when the economy sucks so hard? Should I just be thankful that I am employed and leave it at that?

I am really pissed at the people who got us into this financial situation right about now and the type of overly-entitled mentality pervasive in this country which got us to this point.

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September 7th, 2008

09:30 pm
I just finished Part 1 of my first weekend intensive class at Lesley. We had class Friday 5-10pm, Saturday 8am-5pm, and today 8am-5pm. There were tears and the gnashing of teeth. I am EXHAUSTED. I am also newly in love with veggie burgers... in fact, toying with becoming a vegetarian is becoming slightly more serious...
So sleepy.
Love you all.

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August 22nd, 2008

07:46 am - Party tonight~
I know this is late notice, I forget that everyone isn't on facebook:

It's that time again!

Time to celebrate another year of fabulousity and debauchery in the life of a professional bon-vivant of many names.I'd love for you to come to my birthday party where I celebrate attaining the grand old age of twenty-six.

As you all know, I love glamour and costumes, specifically those of the retro and burlesque aesthetic. So my birthday party has a theme and a dress code:

Bubo's 26th Birthday Bal de Danse: Let 'Em Eat Cake!

Dress Code: Burlesque, Retro, Pin-up Glam,Steampunk, Circus (I understand some folks won't be up for this. That's okay, but it would really be wicked awesome if many of you did). Photographers will be on hand to document the event.

Ou?: Chez Moi, 222 Highland Avenue, Apartment 3. We are located next to Somerville Hospital.

Quel Jour?: Friday, August 22, 2008

Quel Heure? : Starting at 8:30pm.

Quel Autre?: There will be alcoholic libations and light snacks, but feel free to bring your own. However, I am also providing lemonade, iced teas, and sodas for those of the teetotaling persuasion.

I hope to see you there,
Much Love,


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August 16th, 2008

12:43 pm
Your pal Mandy just took her first boxing lesson.

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August 7th, 2008

10:18 pm
so busy, so busy, so busy

Hopefully going to see one acts saturday night if the Trojan War doesn't eat me alive first.

I miss you guys. I am just stressed out and totally busy rearranging my life and pending career change.

Ugh. Off to naptime!

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July 15th, 2008

02:14 am
Day of awful anxiety and stress is over, with nice results. We even made some new friends along the way. Huge smoopy hugs to Alyssa and Andy for being so great and take-charge.

Magic Flute opens this weekend. Our Queen of the Night wants to be styled as Elvira! Sweet.

Anyone up for seeing a drag show at Jaques next Monday?

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June 28th, 2008

09:12 am
In more good news.....

I got in to Lesley for the fall!


they gave me a nice scholarship!

This is exciting, but scary at the same time. It certainly means I will have to make lots of important decisions and experience some big changes coming up soon.....

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